solitude and Silence.

 

I just realised that I haven't written in over 6 months, it's amazing how life can just take you over that you forget about the simple pleasures and just doing the  things that you love. With that being said, here I am again trying to piece together this post, I'm a bit rusty and short of words but I am getting there. It's taken quite a lot for me to pick up the computer and finally bring myself to even type this, One of those things is the opportunity to finally have some solitude.


For a few weeks now I have toyed around  with that solitude word in my mind. I have been thinking and wondering what to do with myself and this new found season that I have entered into. Iv tried to just let the days slide by watching episodes of Downton abbey, sipping on tea (and other things) and Instagramming in hopes of passing time and one day just waking up to a completely whole different season. Who I'm I kidding right?  So today is the day that I make peace with this season and make the most of it, by spending more time with God and the word, picking up and improving on my artistic interests, get started on that 50 books reading challenge on goodreads and finishing up on that coding course that I paused/ abandoned half way. I could go on with the list but I'll leave it at that.

Sometimes Solitude is what it takes to bring out the best of us (my introverted side firmly believes this) and sometimes it's the most sobering and humbling way God can get our attention or bring our attention to certain things , and sometimes it's the only way we can get to hear him. I guess it's all a matter of how we view the season, but  one thing I know is that the greatest enemy of  moments of solitude is idleness, it bring about wrong ways of thinking and seeing the situation and in turn brings about negative emotions like loneliness or even depression, I can testify to that!
I take Joy in being able to choose to have some alone time, It's mostly in these moments that I have had God speak to me in the most profound ways. It's not always easy because there has to be a conscious choice or realisation of what the  season is  and as a result have to say no to taking on new friendship and relationships or separating yourself from the existing ones for a while.

I am grateful to God that over the years I have grown in so many ways and have bloomed into this wise and beautiful rose, I may prick myself here and there with my own thorns but If I knew then what I know now, I would have spared my teenage self from some unnecessary despair. regardless, thank heavens for love, grace and Growth, and the moments of Solitude & meditation that helps to birth them.

"Solitude is not a way of running away from life ... from our feelings. On the contrary. This is the time we sort them out, air them, get over them, and go on without the burden of yesterday"

.--Joan Chittister (The Gift of Years: Growing Old Gracefully)