The past week has been a heck of a roller coaster for me. A lot of changes have been happening to my body but the worst of it has been the mind turmoil, the uncertainty of what is going on inside my body and the myriad of questions running through my mind; I'm i pregnant or my mind is just making up these symptoms? If I am, am I ready to be your a mother, your mother??? I'm i ready? How will i take care of you? 

I told your daddy that I was feeling unwell, he thought I had the Corona Virus at first, that's the worst thing that could happen he said, a baby we can deal with that. But I know he was freaking out inside, he knows how to present a calm front. 

Today, I was feeling much calmer so I called you daddy to put his mind as ease. You see, I don't think we are both ready for you if you came. Your dad, I kind of think that he feels he is not there yet. But he's a very good man, and he works very hard. You see, him and I things are kind of complicated. But you don't need to worry yourself about that.

Despite all the worry and panic, baby if at all you came. I would love you with all my heart, I will put you first, I will do my best to give you the world, the world I never had. I will raise you up in your godly purpose. You will never lack anything good, you will not know any pain or suffering. And your papa, I'm pretty sure he would rise to the challenge.

Till then my love, hang tight